枫叶的小小世界

~伪装？武装？~

2010-03-21T16:02:00.000+08:00

你，过得幸福快乐吗？

一个人快不快乐，不是单看表面的。我可以很伤心，但是在别人面前却可以伪装起自己。为什么？我也不知道。

曾几何时，我可以把我一切的喜怒哀乐都写在脸上。虽然偶尔我还是会把情绪都摆在脸上，但是，如今的我，却不允许我自己再这么做了。我已在努力地把自己的情绪隐藏起来。

害怕影响身旁的人？害怕别人的疏远？害怕别人的眼光？种种的原因，在在地显示别人的一举一动会让我失去安全感，也让我变得越来越敏感，越来越小心翼翼。

有人曾经对我说过，我太在乎别人的看法、别人的心情。会吗？或许吧，因为我自己也不知道是不是这样了。

如今，我也只能武装起自己来保护自己了。唯有坚强或是强悍的外表，才能让我更有安全感吧。

最近心情真得很down。希望一切赶快好起来。愿主保佑我咯！加油！！

~一切都不一样了~

2010-02-20T16:19:00.000+08:00

当年的我们，都还是小学生。大家快快乐乐的成长着，一起毕业，一起上中学。到了分道扬镳时，我才慢慢的感觉到，友情，真可贵！

已有好一段时候，我忘了那些无忧无虑的生活。这一个礼拜的大大小小聚会，感慨良多。

我们，已不是当年的我们。有的已成家立业，有的还在为梦想奋发图强，有的还在求学。曾几何时，我们的目标已不一致了。

一个礼拜，我很珍惜，也很舍不得。不想离开，不相分离，因为真的很难的，大家可以庆团圆。金虎年，纪念我们十几年（有的已二十年！）的友谊长存。大家的友谊还能长跑多久呢？让我们拭目以待吧！

祝大家新年快乐，事业/学业和爱情两得意！

~Fairwell My Dear All and My New Chapter of Life will Begin~

2010-01-30T23:05:00.001+08:00

1 Feb 2010 - Brand new chapter in my life. This is my new hope, new beginning and new environment.

I was jobless previously for almost 3 months. I found a temporary job before I accepted my current job offer. How's my temp job like? Sux =.=!!! This is all I could say about my temp job. In the first place, it was really unfair to me. I was kind of "cheated". Supposedly have to call the customer to update their mailing particulars. However, it turned up to be judging all the mailing addresses by ourselves whether it was mailable or not >.< We are expected to be like a Google map, an expert in cleansing the addresses.

Everyday, we are living in a stressful and pressurized environment. None of the day, we are not scolded by our supervisor. She really showing us the "attitude". Cannot tahan her man. Unreasonable woman who always forget about what she said and never be consistent in what she wants.

The only thing that made me sad to leave this job was my lovely colleagues. Those girls are really, cute and adorable. If not these wonderful girls, I might just quit the job and pay the company the compensation. I love my colleagues, they are my source of happiness when I worked in this stressful workplace.

Mon, will be a brand new chapter in my life. I will start my work as an engineer. Although I will be a trainee for 2 years, with no bonus, no increment and no promotion, however, the future seems to be promising. I hope that I am not "cheated" to take up the offer once again.

How will my new work be like? My colleagues? My superiors? From my interviewed previously, the people I am in contact with are friendly and warm, from the uncle in the guard house to my manager. And the HR people are very nice and sweet to me as well =) Of course, I had met my other 2 colleagues, they seems to be easy-going people. Another guy, hope he is friendly as well. Haha...but I'm the only girl again in the new batch of trainee =.=!!! Hope that in the future, there will be more women colleagues around me, although I know this is pretty hard for me as I am an engineer, but I just want to keep this little hope.

Nowadays, nothing is impossible for a woman ^^ Hope that 1 Feb will be a good start for me. I will give my best shot certainly to achieve what I am aiming!

~Where is the LOVE?!?!~

2010-01-26T23:14:00.005+08:00

The world is really very realistic, materialistic and selfish >.<

People can just step you at your back. People can mock you behind. People can just do all sorts of things to you, regardless of considering your feeling, just to achieve their own successful.

However, not all are heartless =) Some people are still kind, lovely, considerate and understanding.

There is still love around me. So, gambate neh! Love is all around, just need to open up ourselves, and giving others more love. Then, you will feel LOVE!

Stress is part of life, take it easy, nothing is impossible ^^

For those who are working, add oil. Your hard work will be seen oneday!

For those who are still studying, keep up your good work =) All the best to everyone!

Loveless,

HuiWei

~A Night in the Halloween Night Safari!!!!~

2009-10-10T03:01:00.002+08:00

Today went out with friends to Night Safari. My very first thought was, the animal habitat would be decorated nicely to meet the theme - Halloween.

But, I was totally wrong when I am inside the zoo. My friend did not actually told me about what was our plan for the night. I paid money to scare myself to death >.Cosplay was all around and everywhere in the zoo, except the animal sections.

Me and another girl were not awared that we were going to board a scary shuttle. "People" with different scary looking faces were scrolling up and down the zoo. We screamed quite loudly throughout the 45 minutes journey =.= I felt embarrased althought many girls were screaming as well.

We took a walk down another path for awhile while waiting for the animal show to start. Again, the girl and I were "cheated" to another "scary yet exciting" walk. Haiz...I screamed so loud till I did not really know what had happened around me. I almost cried to be honest and did not know how to react and what to do. Some other tourist were just laughing and "join in the crowd" to make us screamed more.

I would say, after all those thing, I am easily terrified by anything! I could not really see in dark, would spent quite sometime to get used to the weak moonlight. A small little things on floor can scared me too >.<

However, I am still quite happy to meet the friends I was apart from since June 2008. Although is horrified throughout the journey, I should say I enjoyed more the time spent with my friends. So, overall rating for today outing, 3.5 out of 5 =D (I still could not enjoyed fully in this kind of scary environment!) ~Ciao~

~Mooncake Festival~

2009-10-10T02:43:00.001+08:00

~STEP 1: Preparing the Lantern ^^~

~PiKaChu!!~

~STEP 2: Hanging Lanterns on lime tree~

~STEP 3: Photo time =P~

~Me~

It has been quite few years since last I celebrated Mooncake Festival with my beloved family.

I am super excited that 2009, a meaningful year for me, I am back home. Actually my family just bought those pretty lanterns and some mooncake a day before! Haha...very last minute.

From the photos, you can see how happy I am. Happy to be home, happy to be with my family. Hopefully everyone had a lovely day too with both family and friends.

Back home is relaxing. Nothing to fear, nothing to worry, nothing to do as well =P ~Ciao~

~Into Gaming Again~

2009-09-10T19:49:00.002+08:00

A week ago, my sis and I bought a new PS2 game, Dynasty Warriors Orochi 2. I'm a big fan of Koei, especially the Dynasty Warriors series game. Is my favourite all time.

I stopped playing the game for few days last week. Last week I was sick for the whole week. Having flu + sore throat + high fever. It has been quite sometime I did fell sick. Haha...I was thinking, did I had H1N1? If so, it would be funny as I just went to Spring awhile to buy some groceries. Not much people around and I didn't went to crowded places as well. Ah well, when I was in Europe, UK and Singapore, which the virus spread a lot, I'm fine and healthy. Lol...funny isn't it? But thank God, I'd recovered and is as healthy and alive as before.

Now I'm quite into the new game. Crazy and was pretty enthusiastic to finish the stages and stories so to unlock new stages and characters. From my pass experiences, this game took me sometime to get fade up as there quite a lot of things to be unlocked, e.g. stages, characters, final weapons, treasures, abilities, etc. Lol...this is how I pass my day at the moment. It might not sound fun to some people, but for me, it is.

I do play games. It just I want to or not. I do like cute games, but I get bored easily. I do find some of the games that guys are into are very interesting to me. I felt excited and I could feel my blood pumping and heart beats. Life 4 Dead is another game I love. Ah well, my lousy laptop resolutions is not good enough to support the game. I wish I could get a computer sometime later and I can have chance to play that game online with some of my friends. The 2nd series will launch soon (or already? I'm not too sure).

Gaming, is not just a way for me to kill my spare time, but also to distress myself. I enjoyed loads when I clear the stages, or win the game. Haha...I may not be a good player, but I just love the feeling when I play game. And, I do have a very weird habits when I play games. This was told by one of my close friend. She told me, I talked lots to myself, to the screen, to the air =.=!!! Haha...bah...just another random post. will just stop here then. ~Ciao~

~宅女就是我~

2009-08-28T23:43:00.004+08:00

Yeap, as it can be seen from the title. I am 宅女.

Actually I started to realize this whilst I was still in Manchester 2 years ago. I started to realized that I dislike crowded places, I dislike noisy places, I am lazy to get out of my room, I enjoy sticking to my laptop all day long. I wonder had I ever change or I am a person of that since long time ago, just that I myself do not know about it.

I found myself very comfortable sitting at home just spending my day by watching tv, sleeping, eating and surfing the net. Sometime I am thinking, why not I aim for higher education? My answer often was...I had enough. I do have a dream, dreaming about graduating with a phD qualification. Haha...but this is too 强“我”所难.

How about looking for a job? Yeap. I need a job now. Is time for me to survive by my own. I hope I can use my hard earn money (when I have a job) wisely. For church, for my expenses, and hopefully for saving and my parents. I know my parents will not need to depend on me, however, I still hope my "little money" can show them my cares and loves for them.

Talking about dreams. Haha...The movie Up I watched with my sis and friends 2 days ago was a good movie. I never expected it would be that meaningful. It reminds people about everyone had a dream. No matter how unrealistic, how "funny" it is to others, but people must live with a dream. Without dream, I do not know where I should go, what I should do, etc. Dreams is one of my "fighting spirit". In order to achieve them, I will work hard.

What are my dreams? Oh~ It is a secret =P 枫叶 Fighting!!! Same to those who is pursuing their dreams all around the world. ~Ciao~

~Update Update~

2009-08-25T01:40:00.013+08:00

Finally back to Kuching~ Home sweet home~~ Great great food!!!!

It has been very long that I last update my blog =.=!!! Ah well...I guess some people might just think I have "abandoned" my blog. Or there is none to visit my blog??Hmmm...I don't really think people might be interested at my blog too. Too boring. Too normal. Nothing much special.

What am I doing at home now? Nothing. Besides eat sleep and day dream. Wanted to meet up with "old" friends also can't. All are studying oversea. But luckily, there is still Vic & KS. Meet them up sometimes to play badminton. MJ and Alison are back too. But they are leaving real soon. So not much time I can spent with them too.

One of my friend's mum just past away. Is kind of weird that all of us (as "old" friends) don't really know what we can do. Did visit her. But don't know what to say. I do want to say some comforting words. But what can I say apart from "add oil". This is the first time ever I faced this kind of situation. Guess at this moment the only thing we can do for her is to offer her a helping hand when she needs us.

Finally my graduation photos reached my house today ^^ I waited for so long. They said will reach me within 4 weeks. But it took more than 5 weeks. But anyway, I'm grateful that I did received it today!

Being a pig is my "full-time job". Yeah. I'm graduated. Being jobless. Not applying for any job yet. Why?? Just because I want to take a "short break" before I start a new page in my life. Working life is so different from study life. No more correction and exams. No more free time and holiday. I must recharge myself before I start my race in my work place. All the best to me! I know God is with me. Everything will just go accordingly if I have faith in Him.

Haha...Pretty random kind of blogging. Hope who read this don't mind. ~Ciao~

~My beloved family & I~

~I've graduated!!!~

~Ice Cream~

2008-11-23T09:18:00.003+08:00

A song I like...from the HK TVB drama...Moonlight Resonance...Lyrics pretty touching, pretty romantic...It touches my heart...what about you?

Ice Cream (Talk to Me) by DNR

Talk to me
You speak with me
Don't sink before you rise baby
Don't fade away

You hesitate
You seem to wait
For all the time we had
Feels like world away

CHORUS:
(And now) Who's to say, we'll be ok
We will make it through the night
Don't wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we're the same
And I know that we'll never change
Look I bought your favourite ice cream
I don't wanna see it melt away

If you walk out now
I don't know if we're gonna be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me
(I want you to stay here with me)

The memories
The things we did
I locked inside my heart
Where I know I won't forget

CHORUS

Here's the link:
http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=TgZCtpWnAso&feature=related
Enjoy!!!

~Had You Ever??~

2008-11-16T02:27:00.002+08:00

Had you ever felt so empty, when you are alone? Had you ever felt lonely, when you are surrounded by people?

I miss home...the solution I got. I found out that, even tho I was happy and filled my times with lots of things. Having fun with friends, watching movie, hang around with church people, etc, however, I still felt that, something is missing. Even till now, I still don't know what it is actually. I think, I'm homesick all the time. Everything was fine, although I'm bored back home, but still, I'm happy and some how "filled" within my soul. Family...the place where I can really find my heart >.<

Hmm...still lost my voice...however, thank God, almost fully recover, just little bit of coughing and flu sometime (I always had flu since young) and my voice...still bit rough and "gone". Just little down, little upset...nothing much to say...nothing much I wanted to do...Have to concentrate my study tonight...I must!!!

I really miss my family. From last time, till now and always, I miss them.

~RanDom~

2008-11-04T08:06:00.004+08:00

"Persistent. Demands what she feels to be her due and endeavors to maintain her position intact."

I wonder how true the statement above is. I got this feedback from a website that I took a personality test (colour test to be specify). I linked to this website when I randomly browse through my friend's blog. And just clicked on the link in her blog.

Are they best describe me? I guess sometime it does...not 100% true always I suppose.

Well...Ciao~ Have a nice day!

~Sunny Day, Happy Day~

2008-10-13T04:09:00.003+08:00

Sun!!! Finally, after so many rainy days, there is a sunny day =)

Tomorrow is going to rain. Don't like it >.< Rain make me lazy, make me wanted to sleep more.Today went to church as usual. Sign up for welcome camp. Wohooo~ Fun! Can't wait to go for it although it means I have to struggle to find times for my homework during that weekend. After church, actually went to have some pasta with Siew Teen.Along the way to the restaurant and also during early dinner time, we had a chat on my "sense of smell". I do really taste "smelly" taste in meat. Don't like it. But still eat it. Siew Teen said she don't really smell anything in the meat. Maybe my sense of smell is too "develop". I am like a cat or dog?? Haha...sensitive to smell.She suggest maybe I should go into the industrial of winery (e.g. wine tasting) instead of oil and refinery. Hmm...A good suggestion. I do love wine (but only red wine). I love to drink red wine, tolerance for it...consider not too bad?? I wonder...Never try to get myself drunk before. But all this need training!! Will give it a think before I graduate. Is really good to have a job that is your interest or hobby. Interesting topic for me to work on. Will find out soon whether which industrial I ended with next year. Anyway, I can't control where I want to be or what I want to do. Only He does. Just need to follow the pathway He want me to be. Yeah...my Heavenly Father know what is the best for me. Always, now, and forever ^^ Have faith is what I need.

~Uni Started~

2008-10-05T08:14:00.004+08:00

Uni started for about a week. Everything went fine, except my mood.

Still in holiday mood, or working mood. I found out that after 3 months of part timing and resting at home doing nothing except food and games, I rather became lazy to study. I knew I have to catch up for study. To be hardworking, revising my lecture notes, doing research and have more reading on my projects, etc.

I dislike my timetable as well. Main reason because everything start at 9am everyday >.< Monday, I had 2 hours class and I'm done =.=!!! Tuesday, 1 hour lecture + half day lab. Wednesday, as usual, half day class. Thursday, an hour lecture. Friday, the busiest day of all, 9am till 5pm~Sigh~ I rather had Monday full day class as it at least can motivate me for the rest of my day. Friday, a day towards weekend, which is like more resting and personal time, it turn up to be a full day class from 9am till 5pm.This is my final year of study. Hopefully, I can "try my best" to get what I desire to have. And of course, not forgetting of touring around Europe. This is my last chance! Although next time I might be coming back to Europe for holiday (wonder when is it), however, it will be a totally different experience. I'm pretty happy I have few close friends here, but sad to say, I have to leave them in 9 months time. Won't be able to see them for few years as most of them are graduating in 3 years time. If they are not returning to Malaysia for jobs, I wonder if I could hardly see them in my life again.The most happiest thing I had here now is a new place to stay. Thanks for God's blessing. I stayed with my friends. I really can have a warm feeling each of every time I finish class and came home. Felt like I'm being at home, not lonely anymore. I used to refuse to get back to my hall last year as the only thing that waited for me is a cold room. My best friend, or rather I should say, "my husband" is my laptop. But now, I won't have this problem =) Home, is what I have now. Although not permanent, but it will be in my heart. A sweet memory that I cannot wipe of. Their footsteps are short in my life, but is there forever in my heart.Talk without action is nothing. So, to repay God's grace, I'm learning to serve Him tomorrow. Will be attending the church choir practice tomorrow for the sake of ease next time I want to serve in that ministry. Anything He wanted me to serve, I pray that I can serve Him with a thankful heart, sincerely and faithfully. This is because, all that He do is because He loves me ^^ (this is a quote from the movie "Evan Almighty" I watched on Friday night in fellowship)Have a nice weekend!

~Try Out~

2008-09-08T12:57:00.010+08:00

Nothing to do at home today. Off from work a day.

So, decided to try this out. Haha...my sis ever say why I didn't had any pictures in my blog. Hmm...I just don't know how to do it. Today, I decided to had a try on it! However, it took me so long to had it done!!! Oh dear, why the command keep changing by itself? Com idiot like me couldn't understand why. ~Sweat~

~My Home Sweet Home - Family Photo (Taken in year 2008)~

~My Best Friend Forever~

Okie. Finally I think I manage to do it after several tries =) Haha...Pretty easy tho. Yeah...I'm stupid...haha..such an easy job also never think of try it out before. (In my heart: Some more took so long time yea >.<) That's all for today ^^ A nice day to have. Sunny and windy!

~Tiring Week~

2008-09-07T16:11:00.002+08:00

Soooo tired......That is the best description for me now =p

Tired of working. Hmm...How am I going to survive this reality when I soon graduate from uni? Oh dear. I so afraid, I will be frustrated and lazy to work when I find a job next year.

I'm just being lazy. Haha...However, life still goes on. Without hard work, how are we going to earn a living? Certainly not by others. There is a Chinese idiom saying, it always the best to depend on our own. No one can gurantee what will happen tomorrow.

Next year will be a changing year for me. A year for me to step into the working society, living under pressure of works, learn to handle my own money, have a proper economic planning so that I could handle all my expenses, and probably, to rent a house near my work place with my sister.

I always wanted her to see the world. How cruel is it, how cold blooded people can be sometime just to protect their ownselves. She is just too over protected. Sometime, she just being her own "cool" self =.=!!! She seems to doesn't care bout how people feels. I knew she does cares some time, but she is still under my parents protection sometime. She don't really understand she had hurted people. She just didn't realized. But I really wanted her to know. Perhaps, I can talked to her. Wonder how, just I don't know. Me and her are too different, in physicals, mentals, everything. Haha...the only common fact she and me have is the blood tie. Muahaha...a facts that forever cannot be change! I knew I'm not good in telling her, but I'll try, not that I wanted to end with shouting at her, nor have a fight, but I just want her to know, everything I say is for her own good. If she is not my sister, why should I care about her right? A simple reason, just because, she is my sis. A fact that no one can change. She is my family, I just want her to be the best!

~Enjoying the days left in Singapore~

2008-08-29T11:51:00.003+08:00

Haha...just realized...I didn't update my blog for so long...

Back to Singapore for almost 2 weeks already. Time flies. The days I'm leaving for Manchester is getting nearer and nearer >.< I don't want to leave. Bored in Manchester sometimes. Suffering from not been able to enjoy most of my favourite food!!! Misses my family and friends as well.

However, having too long holiday also make me a lazy pig. Haha...everyday wondering around for past 2 months. Doing nothing accept eat, sleep, games and television programme. Although bit bored, but still enjoying it. I won't be able to do that in Manchester, and also after I graduate. Arh...thinking of I'm going to graduate so soon. I'm so don't know what to do after I graduate. I wanted to know and find a job that I really like. But, I don't even know what job suit me or what I'm looking for. Haiz...hopefully by the time I graduate, and after awhile of resting, I can find something I would like to try and do!

Now, I'm currently doing some part time job in my cousin's company. Not her company...Haha...ppl thought she owned that company. But is just I was a part timer in her company only. So, she is my colleuges as well =) Have to do something to make my brain cells work. If not, it just die off for nothing. I will become a very stupid person I guess sooner or later if I continue my "good life". Accounting and admin works are what I'm doing now. Very different from what I study. Chem Engrg involves lots of complicated mathematics and theory. What I do now, mostly remember where these documents to be filed, the format of account and so on and so forth. What I a bit dislike is, facing computer whole day long =.=!!!

Okie, enough of update I guess. Hehe...to those who happen to read, don't think I disappear from the world =p Must treasure my time left for my family and friends before I can see them in a year time. ~Ciao~

~Back Home~

2008-07-05T22:54:00.003+08:00

Real.....bored =.=!!! I'm so bored back home. Nothing much to do. Everyday sit at home doing nothing. Hmm...internet connection is bad. Streamxy is slow...and...Don't know what to blog about too.

Hong Kong was pretty fun. Good food. Fantastic night scenery. But....bad weather. The only thing I'm not happy with. I want to get out of my house. Where I can I go? No where to shop, no friends to look for, wonder what can I do except, eat, sleep, and watch television show at home. Close friends are not around back home. All scattered in West Malaysia and Singapore.

Today, go take "family photo". Yea...because it's free (except have to pay for the photos developing), so, there is nothing I can complain about the camera man skill. So, waiting for another 2 or 3 weeks for the outcome.

Tomorrow is Sunday. Another day which I don't know what to do after church service. Waiting to go back Singapore. Can meet up some friends, especially my beloved MokMok, and work part time at my cousin's office to kill my free time. Honest speaking I don't really enjoy and loves to do admin and account, however, at least I have something to do, for my brain to work with, and most important, the easiest way to spent my time. Haha...with a little pocket money earn too =)

I dislike study, dislike assignments, hate exams the most. Hmm...results was out. Not a fabulous one, however, still able to maintain at 2-1 results. Wanted to aim for 1st degree next year, which is my final final year of study, wonder I could do it or not. Who knows? Just let it be. Work hard is all I need to do!

Without study, I really don't know what to do. When I'm away from home, I miss home a lot. When I'm back home, I'm bored. Arh....dilema!!! I'm a strange person. Mood swing all day. Hormone unstable? Muahaha...absolutely not. Just that's me. Always like that. Forever like that.

Okie, enough of random post.

~Disneyland = Wonderland =)~

2008-06-24T23:27:00.006+08:00

My 2nd day in Hong Kong. I went to Hong Kong Disneyland with sis...a wonderland that most kids dreamt to go. Today, after I've grown up (too old to be a kid anymore) then I'm there to have fun in that wonderful land, which full of dream and fantasy.

To see the super star all time, Mickey and Minnie, I've queued up for more than an hour =.=!!! The queue was quite long. But it took us ages to get the chances to snap a photo with the super idols. Some more we have less time compared to the kids. Why? Of course, they were just kids. They have more priviledges! Donald was my next target. Next, actually targeted Goffie and Pluto, but then too lazy to queue up, although the queue for Donald, Goffie and Pluto was rather short (all kids queued up for Mickey and Minnie), I had enough and felt too lazy to queue up again. Then, we watched every show (e.g. Golden Mickey, 3D Disney Orchestra, Lion King Festival and Fireworks except the water parade). The day was rather packed and there were still few things that we missed out due to shortage of time, such as Sleeping beauty castle, Tarzan's house, etc. Oh ya, I missed out Tarzan's house because Disneyland have to closed all the outdoor activities especially the water one, due to the sudden change of 1st level taifeng to 3rd =.=!!! Sobs...

It was rather hot today, windy later on with slight rain for few seconds. My sis was with me. This is the first time both of us travel all alone by ourselves. A cool experience for me. But, I wonder why, not really very excited tho. Both of us were impressed by the night scenery of Hong Kong. Very nice man ^^ Haha...from the 1st level taifeng, then today 3rd, and then now 8th =.= Oh dear, I really don't know we are lucky or unlucky. Haha...experiecing this kind of weather that we will never had in Malaysia or Singapore.

Hmm...Hong Kong is rather similar to Singapore. However, it is much modern and high-tech (in my personal opinion) than Singapore. The MTR system is very big. Rather complicated as there are lots of different lines connecting to each other. Hmm..some even only open during horse racing day. Wow~ real impressing yea!

My 2nd day in Hong Kong is not that tired. But the food I tried till now are all very nice ^^ Money is used up fast >.<

Days in Hong Kong, although only 2, was rather sweet. Friendly and warm friends and her family. I really thank them and appreaciate their doing for me and my sis. If not because of her, I will not be able to save more money cos I'm staying over her place. Her family is just warm and sweet. Thanks!

~Sayonara Manchester~

2008-06-06T07:37:00.004+08:00

Few more hours and I'll be on plane, flying back to Singapore!!! Pretty happy and bit sad. Sad that won't be seeing my Manchester friends for quite few months. Will miss them de ='( Especially those that I see almost everyday, and those that did the revision to chiong for the final exams with me in library de!

Going back to Singapore will be a happy one. Why?? Of course family and friends are there. Good food is waiting for me as well. I miss some of the food ne. Really will become a pig I guess when I get back. Haiz~ A "meat ball" will return to Manchester in September lo >.

~HOLIDAY~

2008-06-03T00:12:00.003+08:00

HOLIDAY!!!! I'm done with all my exams ^.^

I'm so happy + sad. Hmm..weird yea...Haha..very simple...sad because I've studied for whole week just for today's paper. And....it turned up to be something SO SO SO difficult >.< However, as long as I can pass it, no need to come back for resit in August, I'm content. Is kind of weird here. Too slack or happy go lucky? I'm not sure. Think time has changed me bit by bit. I'm more easy to let go something nowadays as compared to the old me. I found it, no point to hold on something that is not for you. Haha..so, I'm just content with what I can get now (of course not expecting the worse to worse). Pass, is all I need now =)Happy?? Of course ^.^ Why? Cos...I'm GOING　ＨＯＭＥＯＮ FRIDAY!!!! Muahaha...just can't wait man. Although now I have to face the reality of cleaning up my messy messy room which I've neglected for such a long time. The whole period of exams time I just didn't tidy it up =.=!!! Horrible now.My friend who promised me to help me move my house on this Thursday can't make it anymore. He had house group >.< Now trying to think of way to solve it. Might need to rent a car tho. Not sure what to do yet. Really "fan". Hopefully everything can be settled soon. Haha...thinking ahead of I'll be back on Saturday to Singapore, I just can't stop smiling =) It's great always to back to where you belong to (opps, Sg is not my country tho, I'm from Malaysia instead, Sg is somewhere to be my "home" in the future after I graduate next year).Hopefully I can go to Hong Kong with MeiMei after she graduation on 20th June. I really so wanted to go man!!! Please, hopefully mummy allow arh...July, will be back home. There is not much people there tho this time. So sian. Think SonSon will be my "entertainment" again as usual =) Haha...This year, all 3 of my best friends didn't get back to Kuching. MokMok, she will be in Sg; Joanne, stay back in KL for placement; Ying, I don't know where will she be =.=!!!Waaa...too excited dy. Blog till can't stop now =P Thing I shall go have a good rest today and enjoy my last few days in Manchester =) BYＥ BYE Manchester. I will be back (to Manchester) on 14th September. Hopefully no resit in August. **Ciao**

~No God or Know God?~

2008-05-29T09:29:00.003+08:00

An interesting article I read in Friendster's Bulletin. Really make me think about it. Very meaningful to me. After reading it, I realized that sometime, we are just ignorant to things that is happening around us. What is science actually? To prove all the things that happened in the world from past till now? No...absolutely not. There are still a lot of things that can't be prove or even I should say, using the philosophies or theories by those great scientist to explain them!

Faith...what a good word to describe what we should have in us =) We are living by faith. Not only to have faith that God did exist although we can't feel Him and see Him like what we see all other things that exist in this world. I also learned that, the opposite of something, is not really so. It is not because its opposite meaning, but rather a lack of it! Haha...can't really put this very good in words. Maybe you will have a better understanding of what I'm trying to say here after reading the articles below. Might sounds boring to some people, but, please do enjoyed it as I really think I is a good one =) God do exist. Jesus is our Saviour =) Are you aware of that?

Okie. I shall stop here and let you have a look at the articles I've read. Enjoy!

The story goes....

An atheist professor of philosophy speaks to his class on the problem Science has with God, The Almighty. He asks one of his new students to stand and.....

Prof: So you believe in God?
Student: Absolutely, sir.
Prof: Is God good?
Student: Sure.
Prof: Is God all-powerful?
Student: Yes.
Prof: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn't. How is this God good then? Hmm?
(Student is silent.)
Prof: You can't answer, can you? Let's start again, young fellow. Is God good?
Student: Yes.
Prof: Is Satan good?
Student: No.
Prof: Where does Satan come from?
Student: From...God...
Prof: That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
Student: Yes.
Prof: Evil is everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything. Correct?
Student: Yes.
Prof: So who created evil?
(Student does not answer.)
Prof: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don't they?
Student: Yes, sir.
Prof: So, who created them?
(Student has no answer.)
Prof: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son...Have you ever seen God?
Student: No, sir.
Prof: Tell us if you have ever heard your God?
Student: No, sir.
Prof: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God for that matter?
Student: No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
Prof: Yet you still believe in Him?
Student: Yes.
Prof: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student: Nothing. I only have my faith.
Prof: Yes. Faith. And that is the problem science has.
Student: Professor, is there such a thing as heat?
Prof: Yes.
Student: And is there such a thing as cold?
Prof: Yes.
Student: No sir. There isn't.
(The lecture theater becomes very quiet with this turn of events.)
Student: Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don't have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.
(There is pin-drop silence in the lecture theater.)
Student: What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?
Prof: Yes. What is night if there isn't darkness?
Student: You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light....But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and its called darkness, isn't it? In reality, darkness isn't. If it were you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?
Prof: So what is the point you are making, young man?
Student: Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.
Prof: Flawed? Can you explain how?
Student: Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?
Prof: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.
Student: Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?
(The Professor shakes his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument is going.)
Student: Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher?

(The class is in uproar.)

Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor's brain?

(The class breaks out into laughter.)

Student: Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?

(The room is silent. The professor stares at the student, his face unfathomable. )

Prof: I guess you'll have to take them on faith, son.

Student: That is it sir... The link between man & god is FAITH. That is all that keeps things moving & alive...

~Count Down~

2008-05-25T06:05:00.002+08:00

It has been a long period after my previous post. Suppose not many people will read. Haha..but I'm still enjoying blogging with my lousy English.

13 more days to go...and I'll be back to Singapore =) Hopefully my dearest MokMok is still there lar...then can meet up with her. Misses her very very much. Hopefully she can get a job in Singapore too...then next year after graduate we will be working at the same country ^^

MeiMei going to graduate soon too. Time flies. Haha...but the days left for me to get back home still seems far from me. Although is just bout another 2 weeks. However, when we misses something, time just pass very slow. Misses my home sweet home. Misses SonSon Chua as well. Wonder how that "xiao gua" do now. July July July....I will be back home.

After Mei's graduation, hopefully mummy allow me to travel to Hong Kong. Haha...last time almost went there with family. But is canceled because of bird flu =.= So disappointed. Now really wanted to go...Can meet my coursemates there too =) That's an exciting thing for me. If mummy didn't go with us. That'll be the first time me and Mei traveling alone. Cool man. Hopefully my no sense of direction won't make things worse. Haha..I trust my friends will show me around de.

Oh dear...seems like I have forgotten that I still have a paper left. Haha...really had holiday mood after the 3rd paper on last Thursday. Already "rest" for few days le. Seems like I really looking forward to get back home instead of having my last paper. Home sweet home + family + friends + food (of course this is a MUST =P) = My love. Faster come oh my day back home.

~Study Makes Me Crazy~

2008-04-24T01:34:00.003+08:00

Wahh....I can't believe that I actually study everyday in library for a week!!! Wor~Impressed sia. I really never ever in my life so hardworking before. Haha...those who knows me well surely know what kind of student am I. Always do last minute job lar...never study till last minute. Always copy answers from friends too...Lolx...Proud of myself this week...

Hmm...but really hard, study really drives me crazy. Just realized that how stupid am I to take so long time to finish study a subject, without understand most of the thing =.=!!!

Just got back from my lecturer's room, why? Of course go asked her about my queries...about the concept I'm not sure about, about the tutorials I could not do. Hoho~First time I really do go asked a lecturer questions. Really felt myself so hardworking. Muahaha...

Hmm...this week not really a good week for me. A lot of suai thing happened >.<>.< First term really didn't do well...hope this term can do much better to pull up my overall marks. My design projects (20 credits overall) and lab (15 credits) didn't do quite well also. So, I didn't really know what can I do....Study hard is the only way for me now...

Jiayou jiayou....june is very near...I'm going home soon...Home sweet home...wait for me!!! I really miss you alot...huhuhu~ k...enough of complains...shall stop here then. Hopefully I will have mood to update this blog soon.

~Back from My Easter Trip~

2008-03-26T22:29:00.003+08:00

I'm back =) The trip is good ^^ I quite like it.

First, I'll talk about Alton tower first. Hehe...out of the 6 major rides, I took 3 of them =) Super exciting man. Love them. For warming up, I took a mini roller coaster ride. Then, Oblivion. The most shiocking one among all the rest (at least for me). When you got up to the top, it will pause there for 3 seconds (90 degree facing down), after that, you will be drop from high! Cool ride. Next ride I tried was Rita Queen of Speed. I don't really like it. However, the starting of the ride is a good one. It speed to 100 km/h within a sec. During the ride, I did hit my neck, pretty pain. The last major ride I tried was Air. Fantastic one. It gave you the feeling of flying. Woo~ Although it has 360 degree turn, but is just 2 turns. So, I dare to take it. Haha...the Nemesis, Ripsaw and the other one, which I forget bout the name (it uses centrifugal force). These 3 were the rides I never try. Why? Because I will definitely be dizzy after these rides as it has a lot of 360 degree turns. I did chicken out for the cursing castle thingy. Really scary to me as I cannot see anything in dark. However, to end my theme park day, I did hop on rides that made me wet. In short, I love the day =)

For the Scotland trip, a nice one. Enjoyed God's great creation. Praise Him for the wonderful scenery He had made for us =) I love the scenery. The sea, the lake, the rainbow, the mountain, etc...and snow ^^ Super cold in Glasgow and Edinburgh (especially Edinburgh), so now, I don't really feel cold in Manchester. Glasgow hostel wasn't as bad as what I expected. Hehe...worth the money also. Free pool provided for the customer =) Breakfast provided too. And...the thing I like was, en-suite bathroom and toilet. Just too bad, if I want to use the internet, have to pay 1 pounds per 30 mins. In Glasgow, actually wanted to visit the Loch Ness. But is too far from where we are. Therefore, went to Loch Lomond instead. Mountain climbing to enjoy the scenery and view, then had Scottish dishes there as well. Tried the Haddock (a kind of fish). Pretty delicious. At night, try some Chinese buffet, expensive but not nice =S Oh ya. We actually missed the train to Glasgow (from Manchester) by a few seconds >.< The people here really super strict. Just by few seconds the door was closed and we are not allowed to hop on the train. Sigh...wasted extra 32 pounds. Original tickets was just 9.25 pounds. *Sobs* Just took it as an experience or I should say, a lesson. Haha...so, to ensure we didn't make the same mistake, we left our Glasgow hostel (Euro Hostel) quite early. However, we still need to stand in front of the screen to wait for the platform number to appear. Haiz, still in a hurry cos the platform number just appeared bout 7 mins before our train left =x

Edinburgh is a really a nice and pretty city. Full of historical buildings, especially castles. Muahaha...finally I got to enjoyed and saw what I wanted to see =) The apartment (Harbor Place) we stayed in Edinburgh is really a worth one. Although is a bit expensive (compare to Glasgow by 10++ pounds per night, but still consider cheap for an apartment or hotel). Is a real big one. Big kitchen, big bedrooms, big and luxury bathroom, and of course, a nice and comfortable living room with tv provided. There were kitchen cutlery as well, dish washer, pots, pans, washing machine, fridges, etc. They even have free wi-fi. Too bad no one bring dvds or laptop. These place is near seaside. We can enjoyed nice view from our apartment. Just too bad we need taxi to travel out and back to our apartment. We did went for the Dungeon. Waaa~ really felt scared as it was so dark inside that I couldn't really see. I really don't like dark places, not that I very scared of ghost or whatever, is just, I have phobia for dark places. However, was not a bad place to visit. Not super scary at all. The people inside just scared you out of sudden. Haha...was shocked few times. One of the nights, the guys went for City of Dead tour (tour to those haunted places or graveyard, etc). I didn't follow. According to them, was not a worth going one. Went for mountain climbing as well on the 2nd day of Edinburgh trip. That was a real nice one. We got to see the whole Edinburgh city on top of Arthur's Seat. Although I didn't really finish the whole mountain hiking trip (too steep and scary to me), but I managed to see marvelous scenery too ^^ Took quite some funny photos there as well. Haha..all thanks to Vanity Sunglasses (my friend's de). Well well, on the last day, we just went around and bought some souvenirs before we left Edinburgh. It snowed, just like saying good bye to us. A good farewell gift from God =)

Okie....really a long blog this time. Too lengthy. So I'll just end here then. Ciao~

~Easter Holidays~

2008-03-17T09:06:00.004+08:00

Yeah!!! Holidays ^^

I'm having a 3 weeks holiday now. Haha...tomorrow, I will be going to Alton Tower. Soooo excited. Wonder I have enough courage to try most of the ride in the theme park. Heard that it will be a long queue before you can get on the ride. Haha...queuing up for hours then the rides only take about a minute or 2 =.=

Must pray that there will be no wind no rain tomorrow. I want a sunny day...Haha...sun shine please. I need you oh dear Mr. Sun =P

Next stop after Alton tower is Glasgow followed by Edinburgh. Muahaha...first time go on trips with friends. Yeah!!! All planned by ourselves. Super proud. Although I just in charged of checking up for timing and prices for the train, but still, hehe, I did learn something. May we all have a pleasant and safe trips.

Oh ya, Happy Easter everyone. Erm...for those who don't know about Easter, Easter is just not about Easter eggs. It is about God's salvation plan for us =) Haha...our loving God had sent His only begotten son, Christ Jesus to die for us on the cross. However, wonderfully and amazingly, Jesus resurrected on the 3rd day. Because of His shed blood, we are saved. Because of His great love, we are able to have eternal life and have the privilege to enjoyed the joy, peace and grace from Him. Because He lives, we can face tomorrow and have hope for life. How great is our God. Isn't he? May those who are still unsaved can come to know this great news of salvation one day.

Okie. That's all from me ^^ Ciao.

~Stressful Week~

2008-02-17T08:47:00.003+08:00

Stressful week...Really felt tired as well.

Stress because of worrying too much. Worry bout my results coming out. Worry bout my assignments. Just simply worrying about this and that.

Thank God for His blessings. Although I didn't scored very good in my exams, but still, I want to thank Him as He have gave me strength to go through all that. Most of all, send me angles to take care and concern about me =) Thanks for the sister in Christ. She really my listener, my adviser, my friend, my sister, my "owner". Only she knew what I meant =p If she is not around with me, I won't have faith in Him. Still pretty stress, but He have lighten my burden. Thanks for the concerns and advices you gave me all time. Because of you, I see His love for me ^^

Life is stressful. No matter what, life still goes on. I have to be strong (although I thought I'm strong enough to take everything, but it proves that I'm not as confident and strong as I think). Really homesick. Misses my mum a lot. Haha...luckily she don't know I have a blog. If she read this, sure she will be very worry about me =x

Okie...Shall end here. It's late night now...very cold as well. And dizzy after facing the com for the whole day. I have no time to be sick. So, time to go to bed. ~Ciao~

~Different Experience on CNY 2008~

2008-02-09T08:50:00.001+08:00

Is Chinese New Year. First time, I'm not home. My parents are in Singapore now, with my sis. I really hope that I could join them. However, this is just a dream >.<

Received "Ang Bao" from dad few days ago. Thanks for that. Thought that I will not have any from them as I'm so far away from home. Haha...some more currency so different. Thanks dad. Although I've used some for my shopping =x

Chinese New Year eve, I have class. Early morning class. In the evening, I have "pot luck" dinner with my friends. Good dinner, good time, good food, good experience. Just that, family is not with me. That's the only thing, missing in my heart.

We can't really have fun till very late as most of us have class on the following day. Class either start at 9am or 10am. What a pity. But I really have a good time =)

CNY 1st day. Go class as usual. Eat "mee sua" for lunch. Haha...not the culture back home. But is the culture of my friend back his home. Thanks for the delicious meal. Really appreciate it.

Night. Go dinner with friends. Thank God I'm not the odd one (not the only girl there). Haha...but guys still more than girls =.=!!! Paid about 10 pounds for that meal. Pretty worth it. Good food again. This time round, red wine is included ^^

"Special and Big Ang Bao" from univerisity is my non-stop ongoing coursework. Workload is getting heavier now. Because I enjoyed too much for CNY, haha...resulting in lacking of sleep. That's why today my mood not that good, and felt so tired and sleepy in class.

Next "Great Valentine Gift" from university, my exams result is out. Heard result is out on 14 Feb. Really hope that I won't fail any subject, as I don't want to come back Manchester during August for the retest. I want to be home. I really miss home. Don't want to miss out any changes that can be at home.

~Lonely Lonely Chinese New Year~

2008-02-06T03:05:00.001+08:00

Don't know why, just suddenly very miss home. Chinese New Year is just near. Tomorrow I will be having dinner gather with some of my friends. Not to say that I'm alone, however, there is some emptiness in my heart. "Family" is the thing that is missing. This is the first time I'm having a Chinese New Year without my family. I want to go home. But, this is just too childish for me to think like that. I have to be strong. This is the path that I've chosen. No matter what, I have to go through it till the end.

~First Snow in My Life~

2008-02-06T02:50:00.002+08:00

It's snowing in Manchester =)

Last Friday, when I was having lunch around 12 noon, it started to snow. I was so excited. However, I couldn't got out of the restaurant and play with the snow outside. Haha...People will just think I'm mad. But, around 3.30pm, when I walked to Faraday Library, it started to have ice falling down from the sky. After awhile, it changed to snow. Really felt excited. Although it is cold, but I couldn't be bother about it. Touching the snow was just a new experience for me. At night, I was out of Manchester, having fellowship at my pastor's house. After the fellowship, it snowed quite heavily for about 10 minutes. Haha...the floor was white, and the cars' roof top were filled with snow as well. I was jumping happily on the snow, but almost fell down =p

I missed out the really heavy snow early morning, which is 3am on Saturday. Haha...I was sleeping like a pig. But, because I have the student dialog section with the Sarawak Deputy, I was forced to wake up early that morning. Hehe...that's a blessing actually as I snowed a lot as well around 9am. This time, it lasted longer time, about 20-25 minutes I guess. Really too delight till I forgot time passed. After the snow, it is freezing cool. When I was away from Manchester, I really don't know where am I, haha...but that small town is really a nice place. Nice scenery, nice houses, all filled with white, all road are white as well, and there was a snow man =) Playing snow fight will be my next target =p

Do snow again Manchester. I really love it!

~Yeah!!! Finally I'm Free =)~

2008-01-27T10:47:00.000+08:00

Hohoho~Friday, exams is over =)

Wee...so happy. Friday paper hopefully can pass. I did answer all the questions. However, was rather shocked when my friends told me, the answer of question 1a (compulsory question) is shooting method o.o Waaa....I'm not even realizing that is the answer man. Sigh...Still very happy thought that at least I answer that question, will have some marks. Now, my dream is gone. Ok...continue...part b is rather alright. Then, part c is the most shocking part. My lecture expected us to memorize the boundary conditions (equations that are used to solve the ordinary differential equation). Sigh...I knew how to do that question seriously. Really very angry because he gave those equations for tutorial and pass year paper. It is exactly the same question in tutorial!!! Really felt so sad when you know you can do something, but because of lacking of one thing, all thing cannot be done. Aiks...rather a gave out marks question. But, I'm force to leave it blank for no reason. Sigh...should have memorize those equations man >.<

Okie...then have to answer 2 questions from 3 questions available. Question 2, no way, don't even know how to answer that part b (worth 16 marks question). So, again is forced to answer question 3 and 4. Not really can do, and also could not finish answering question 4. Hopefully can pass.

Haha...after exams, freedom man. I've been waiting for this days since long time ago. Rather excited and "hyper" maybe...Finally, exams over. Till now, don't feel like worrying about my results first. No point worrying now, just be happy till the day the results is out =p

Have a good lunch with my course-mates, as well as good dinner with my friends and her parents. A good sweet time at one of my friend's hall, and another good night sleep =)

Saturday, another good day. Going out with my good friend, do shopping, walking around city center, haha...and another gathering dinner at my friend's hall. Really had an enjoyable and fun dinner at his place. Just simply like these simple days, with no stress, no exams, with my beloved friends ^.^

~Friday is Near~

2008-01-23T05:11:00.001+08:00

Can't really wait for Friday to come...Haha...Another paper down today. Already don't want to care much about it le...Just let it be like that for this moment.

Hmm...can I do the paper today??? Obviously answer is not. Have been studied and concentrated on pass year paper (first in my life time I've been studied for pass paper, last time I will just skipped pass paper de). Thought the lecturer would have recycle the questions again. All around this few years...He have been recycled almost 100% of the pass paper, not even bother to change the figures.

Maybe this year he realized that he should do something different. Sigh...So hope that he is recycling the pass paper man. When I first saw question 1....part a is a questions from pass paper...I was so excited and thought finally, I saw some hope and light in my final exams. However, everything stop there after I saw part b...I started to go...Oh no...this questions I never done before. Not from the pass paper I've done. Hmm...is alright...just try to recall what I can...But, I just realized that, I've not much thing to write as I really just flip through my notes only. So yea...I have neglated my theory part. Terrible...

When I saw questions 2...oh no...is theory again...sigh...just skip this...when I saw question 3...it is the worse even. Sigh...is one of the similar questions from the tutorial questions >.< I just read through some tutorial questions as I first thought it won't come out. Only those similar to pass year I have concentrated on. Sigh...Unlucky me, revise on wrong thing again. Suainya...So, die die also have to do question 2. At least I've got something to write...not sure that something I wrote is able to help me score...Hopefully not zero....that would be nice enough for me to pass le gua...Question 3...forget it...is not my choice...as I totally no confidence how to do it. And one of it's part worth 17 marks =.=!!! I don't dare to take the risk....Haiz....

Friday is very near...My last paper...and then yesh...I will be set free!!! At least for few days...I can enjoyed before my new semester start. Sigh...Exams end on 25, term start at 28. Although is short, but better than nothing.

Okie, enough of complain here...and Have release most of my stress le...is time for me to gain back my mood to fight for another paper...Hopefully later on I can concentrate much on my study. Go go go!!!

~How to Tackle the Stress in My Life??~

2008-01-21T04:08:00.000+08:00

It was rather stress this week. Everyday I was counting down for the day left for my final exams. I know that I've gained back a little more confident after my 2nd paper. However, I was still rather worried for my 2 coming papers.

Erm...I wonder I could finish my study for my CRE or not. I know I shouldn't spent my time now blogging >.< But, I really felt so terrible because I don't know who else can I talk to about this. All of my friends are stress because of exams too. If I talked to them about my problem, they will be more tension as well. Sigh...bringing my problems into prayer is another method for me to get over my stress.

Today was rather a good day. Thank God that He have made me want to go to church today because I can't finish my study. Yet, I'm grateful that I've gone to church today. Today's sermon was very useful or I should say, really help to cut down my stress.

"What is your record of your long prayer?"..."What is your record of praying the same thing to God?"...All these questions really stroke me. Yea...I knew that I've been lack of endurance and patient in prayers. But, His promise never fail. Matthew 11:28 says "Come unto me, all yea that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest." Matthew 7:7 goes "Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you." Yea...How often we have forget that, Jesus, is always there to lighten our burdens, to share our problems, and always there to help us. We rather try to surf net to find different ways to release our stress. Who have think of Jesus? Surely most of the people who are still in-mature in spiritual life (as I do) have forget this.

From now on, I will try my best, to press on to a particular prayer, praying with patience and endurance, and only by this way, I may have strength to walk through all the problems laying in front of my life. May I won't be just praying when in need, but all time. May I always give thanks to Him that have made me as who I am, no matter hard time or sweet time. May God bless each of His child that cometh humbly to seek His loving face =)

~Just a Boring Post~

2008-01-17T23:09:00.000+08:00

Yeah!!! Another paper down. At least this time...I know how to do the questions :p But don't have enough time to finish them...

2 down...2 more to go....Sianz....

~Only Thing I Wish For Now~

2008-01-15T05:19:00.001+08:00

Today was the first day of my final exams. First paper after 3 months plus in Manchester. First paper for my uni life. However, it turned up not to be a very good start. My first paper was miserable. This is the first in my life time, I've been study hard for my exams, and ended up, I don't know how to do the questions.

Life is unpredictable. Recalled of my pass time in poly, I still manage to score in exams if I do study. However, this time is really a shocking one for me. Really cannot accept the fact that I cannot do the paper. Have been thinking, study so hard for what, in the end also ended up with nothing. Really felt low and disappointed about myself.

Maybe is my efforts put in this exams is not enough. I really don't know. Really felt scared now cos felt like, no more confident for the rest of the paper. I know that I shouldn't worry much about this anymore as I still have 3 more papers to go. I really want to pass. But I have a bad feeling, I may have to resit for the paper.

Heard that retest is in August time...NOOOoooo!!! That's far to long for me. Now I already might fail, if really have to resit in August, I seriously wonder what I will have inside my mind. Can I remember still what I've been study half a year ago??? Oh no man...the answer is absolutely no.

Okie..Shouldn't post this kind of writing as my first post in my new blog. Haha...Will be more good news coming out for the next post. Up till now, just want to get over this miserable time and recover myself. Want a happy old me. Want a healthy old me (now having flu >.<). Want to pass my exams. That's all I want for now.

~My New Blog~

2008-01-10T22:10:00.000+08:00

New Blog...Welcome =)
Update coming soon...

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